Nature, parks, zoos, animals, flowers, trees, the sunrise, the sunset, food, drinks, traveling, and life in general, are best enjoyed with family and friends.
That’s what I realized today after spending my birthday with me, myself and I. 😄
I enjoyed my crazy but fun birthday adventures actually, but as I was admiring the beauty of flowers, as I was enjoying my walk around the park, as I was busy taking photos of flowers, animals, and people, as I was reconnecting with mother nature and reminiscing my childhood days every time I see familiar animals at the zoo, I couldn’t ignore a strong realization within me.
There’s no getting used to being alone. I think there will always be a longing within us to belong – to a family, to a circle of friendship, to a community.
No man is an island, indeed, if we will be truly honest to ourselves.
We may enjoy a moment of being alone, but we were neither created nor meant to be alone. We were created for relationship. We were created for companionship. We were created to love and care for each other. We were created for friendship. We were created for fellowship. We were created for community. We were created to enjoy and endure life not merely for ourselves but more so for people we love and care about.
Many years back, I came to a point in my life when I thought to myself, “I can continue with life without reconnecting with my family, without striving to build a better relationship with them, or without sharing my life’s moments with them.”
There also was a point in my life when I stopped building close relationships with people around me for fear of being left behind, being rejected, or being hurt in the process. In short, I thought to myself that life would be completely fine without working out a better and harmonious relationship with my family and not having close, trusted friends around me.
Such a hypocrite and prideful younger me, I know!
But I believe I’ve come a long way from that insecure younger self. The journey had not been easy and what lies ahead might still be full of challenges, but as I’ve grown in age, I’ve also gained experiences that helped shape me into the woman I am today.
I am not perfect (I wish), and I will never be. I will always be a work in progress, but as I had chosen to spend my birthday with me, myself, and I today, I’ve come to realize in a much deeper sense the importance of my family and the friends I have, both near and far.
I am an introvert. I love being alone most of the time, but from now on I’ll try my best to spend more time with my family and friends who love me, care for me and stayed beside me even during those times when I was undoubtedly undeserving and unlovable.
Lastly, here’s another message that I think was meant to be relayed to me today:
Hahaha…yes, I strongly felt that was placed there for me that’s why I took a picture of it. I was at the same cafe yesterday but I didn’t notice that cup. Today, when I saw it, something within me seemed to whisper that I should take heed to what it says, haha! So, yeah, I’ll try not to be so hard on myself also from now on.
Overall, I had a great 34th birthday. I almost got into an accident when I was on a bike trying to get away from the busy area near the park (so I could get a taxi or DiDi and not miss my train back to Zhengzhou), but thankfully my Dad’s angels were on guard and quick to help me get to safety and not hit the car that was parked beside the road a few feet ahead of me. Wherever I go, I can see my Father’s hands always protecting me. Today was undeniably one of those moments.
Thankful for my 34 years of existence and looking forward to more exciting, meaningful, wonderful, joyful, hopeful, productive, and victorious years ahead! Soli deo gloria!
Here are some photos I took today: