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Hold Me Tight

I thought the storm was dying down, but apparently, I was wrong;

When I thought things are starting to get back to normal;

Here comes another storm that completely took me by surprise;

And is now annoyingly lingering with no plans to leave my territory soon.

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I certainly didn’t see it coming, but I believe You did;

You could have prevented it from happening, but You chose not to intervene;

What I least expected to happen didn’t take You by surprise, I believe;

So I’m choosing to trust You and Your promises of peace, comfort, and grace.

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From where I am standing now, all I see are wounds, pains, and tears;

A place badly beaten by life’s blows and uncomfortable twists and turns;

On my own I would not be able to stand another day to endure the storm;

So I’m trusting You that You’ve got my back, now and evermore.

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With the strength I have left, I’m not sure how long I can keep holding on;

With all the blows and hits I’ve endured, I’m not sure if I could stand another raging storm;

So please hold me tight and never let go of my weak and weary hands;

Draw me closer to Your side no matter how many storms would try to stop me from moving forward.

❤❤❤

In my despair, I’m choosing to hold on to Your faithfulness and unrelenting love.

 

 

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Torn. Unsure. Debating. Wondering!

I miss you but a part of me says I shouldn’t because you simply don’t deserve it

I really want to spend time with you, but the other part of me says it’s unnecessary

I try hard not to think of you, but there’s a part of me that can’t seem to stop doing so

Why am I in this situation? Why am I torn? Why am I unsure of what to do?

 

I thought I had it under control

I thought I had it figured out

I thought I knew better than this

Apparently, I’m still the same me – weak and undecided.

 

Just like I thought you were better than how you acted

I thought there was more to you than just being cool and charming

I thought you knew better than all those other men I compared you with

It turns out, you seem to be the exact opposite of who I thought you were.

 

I thought I saw through you; thought I saw a glimpse of who you really are

Despite those walls that you seem to have intentionally built around you

I thought I saw great potentials in who you are and who you can be

But now I can’t help but wonder if I was completely wrong to see you that way.

 

I hate being here…

I hate being unsure…

I hate having to think twice about what I should say or do

Why do I have to find myself debating whether or not you’re worth having back?

 

Why can’t life be simple and free of complication for once?

So that I don’t have to think twice whether it’s worth it or not to have you back in my life?

I was doing great. Then you came. Then you left me broken. And now you’re coming back? 

What am I supposed to do now? Just accept you again and pretend that nothing happened?

 

I don’t know; I just don’t know what to do now…

You disappeared for quite a while so I got used to being alone again

Now you’re back and I feel like you’re hoping that everything will be fine

Do I just have to forget everything as if nothing happened? Just like that?

 

Do I just have to forget the pain you’ve caused me when you left?

Do I just have to pretend that all is well as if you didn’t disappear all of a sudden?

Do I just have to forget that you weren’t there when I needed you the most?

Do you really expect me to be okay with your return without you giving me an explanation?

 

So what is it, Mister?

What do you want from me?

Are you happy now that you’ve put me in this situation?

Are you satisfied now that despite all you’ve done a part of me still wants to have you back?

 

But don’t be so certain…

Because there’s still another part of me that is still sensible…

The other part of me that is still debating…

The other part of me that is still thinking and wondering.

 

Wondering if it’s really worth it to allow myself to be vulnerable again

To forgive you and make you part of my life again

To open up myself into another possibility of being hurt and broken again

To take the risk of having you back despite my fear that you’re gonna leave me again.

 

So right now, I’m absolutely torn…

I’m unquestionably unsure of what to do…

I’m still debating whether or not it’s a good idea to have you back…

I’m still wondering whether you’re worth taking the risk or NOT!

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Simply Grateful

Unconditionally…

YOU love me despite my shortcomings and unfaithfulness

YOU care for me even if I repeatedly caused YOU pain and grief

 

Untiringly…

YOU show me the way whenever I’m lost or stuck between crossroads

YOU always guide my steps and light my paths through YOUR Word

 

Faithfully…

YOU meet my needs and grant my wants and desires

YOU provide people along the way to guide and mentor me

 

Persistently…

YOU always pursue me despite my stubbornness

YOU pick me up every time I fall due to my own mistakes

 

Sincerely…

I thank YOU for everything YOU have done for me

For dying on the cross to free me from the penalty of sin and death

For loving me and drawing me closer to YOU each day

And for continually molding me into the woman whom YOU desire me to be.